I’ve been solo parenting for the last 10 days.
On Sunday, Leila, Rahul and I spent the morning out. We were at a housing complex close by, playing on their favorite blue and red dolphin-swings. Nothing pleases them more.
At one point we take a break: drink some water, eat a few grapes, change a diaper (or two).
Rahul sits on a long multi-coloured bench, under a massive trees packed with tweeting birds picking at little fruits.
“Afu owange,” he says. (He calls himself Afu, his Sichuanese name.)
He points at the bench to his right, and “invites” me to sit next to him, “Mama geen.”
“Leila der,” he says.
“Leila yellow,” I say as I point to her section.
Their legs dangling, bodies energised, we break into song; one from our favorite old DVD “Sing and Sign”. (www.singandsign.com)
“If you’re happy and you know it, clap your hands.” Clap. Clap.
“If you’re happy and…”
Before we get to the end of the verse, Rahul looks me in the eyes, and says, “Mama sad.”
“Not at all, I’m very happy to be here, sitting between the two of you. What do you mean sad?”
While I was saying all that I recalled a conversation I had with him the day before, and realized that he had tied it into the next verse of the song.
“Yes. I’m sad because papa isn’t here, just like you and Leila. But I’m happy to be here, with you, singing and playing!” I beam a smile. We finish up our claps and continue.
“If you’re sad and you know it, have a cry.” Sniffle. Sniffle.
“If you’re sad and…”
Rahul looks at me through his big, round, dark eyes.
“If you’re naughty and you know it, say you’re sorry. SORRY.”
“If you’re naughty and…”
Leila looks at me with a mischievous grin. We laugh.
By the last verse, “If you’re angry and you know it, stamp your feet,” we were all off the bench, stamping our feet.
We march home in a chain.
For the first few minutes L and R hold hands and I’m on one end. We sing Colonel Hathi’s song from the Jungle Book, all the way home.
“See the aim of our patrol,
Is a question rather droll…”
Now I’m walking in between L and R.
“For to march and drill,
Over field and hill
Is a military goal!”
And now I’m carrying one child, diaper bag on the opposite shoulder, guiding the walking child.
“Hup, 2, 3, 4
Keep it up, 2, 3, 4.”
We switch to one of the previous set-ups.
We stop for a minute. Leila insists on climbing a tree. Like Mowgli. I lift her up against the trunk.
The next morning, as we exit the elevator to go out and play:
Ayi is up ahead with Leila.
I am with Rahul. He’s hardly moving. I’m ahead of him. I look back.
“Afu sad,” he says after a moment of hesitation, and with a forlorn look.
I turn around, walk back and squat next to him. I look him in the eyes and ask if it is because his papa isn’t here.
He nods and turns his gaze downwards.
“He’ll be back in 4 days,” I try to comfort him.
“Vion,” he says as he signs an aeroplane. (Vion=Avion=Plane)
“Yeah, exactly! He’s coming on a plane. And we can skype with him as soon as we go back home, OK?”
10 thoughts on “Sad”
This is such an adorable post! So did Rahul Kype with his daddy that day?
Thanks for dropping by!
Yes Rahul “kyped” with his dad that day, and every day – it’s always in bits and pieces of course because of the jet-lag. Maher was in the US, so major jet-lag!
I had a very vivid dream about Rahul and Leila last night. Kype soon =]
Love hugs and kisses x
Really? Would love to Skype soon! The other day, Leila saw a picture of a young woman and said “Saloni.” And then she said your name a few more times.
Hope all is well,
After reading the post, I could feel their emotions and yours too:) Not to worry, papa is coming back soon:) Afu and Leila are just adorable and listening to them speak on skype is the best thing to make the day better and brighter. Lets skype tonight and catch up. Its crazy how they are growing so fast and developing their unique personalities.
Maher is back in a few hours, so it’s all good now!
They are developing their own personalities, but it’s not easy to express that in little stories, and I’m not skilled at that….especially the bits that overlap. I mean they are both talking a lot. They both miss their dad A LOT!
Would love to skype – let’s try for tomorrow.
How sweet. Thoughts and bises hxx
Lovely to hear from you Hedvig,
I had no idea that children so young could express their emotions. I can barely do it NOW! There’s some serious separation-anxiety going on as well though,
We’ll see how it goes,
Oh, honey. This being apart thing sucks so bad and you are dealing with it beautifully. Hugs to your lovely family.
Thanks for the hugs Desi.
Yeah it SUCKS! It’s going better now than it had been the first few days. Maher is back tonight…so definitely all better now!